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Are you happy now…?

09/04/2017|   Italy
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IT: Calogero. Calogero non vuole diventare un ricordo.

Venni a sapere da Maria-Teresa che era tornato da Bruxelles subito dopo le feste. “Con tanti bei propositi” disse lei. Sembrava molto convinta quando era venuta a trovarmi, a febbraio se non sbaglio, portandosi dietro una lettera che lui aveva scritto per me dicendo che avrei dovuto aprirla solo dopo che lei fossse tornata a casa.

Era scritta  a mano – questa gente scrive ancora a mano – con lettere nere e nervose che perforavano la carta bianca, prendevano la forma dei pensieri e diventavano parole, ripensamenti e di nuovo parole. “L’ha scritta il giorno dopo che è tornato a casa” almeno così sosteneva lei.

Dopo essermi stata recapitata, l’ho tenuta nella borsa per più di 60 giorni senza mai aprirla, polvere da sparo a portata di mano. Ogni volta che guardavo dentro e la trovavo lì, tra le altre cose,  cercavo d’immaginare perché mai Calogero avesse sentito il bisogno di scrivermi. Lo so che non l’ha fatto per sconvolgermi o mettermi in difficolta, nemmeno perché volesse strapparmi dal quotidiano-consuetudinario, non è il tipo. Non è mai andato a prendere le cose, ha sempre lasciato che fossero le cose a venire da lui. “Voleva solo sapere se tu fossi contenta ….” ha detto Maria-Teresa …”e voleva chiedertelo lui”. E se non l’avevo aperta fino a due giorni fa non è stato perché non l’avessi voluto ma perché avevo paura che quel filo nero di parole potesse mandare all’aria tutto in un attimo.

 L’ho letta venerdì sera e poi di nuovo ieri pomeriggio. E oggi. L’ho letta cento cinquanta nove volte.

 La lettera diceva così…..

 

EN: try also  Google Translate

Calogero. Calogero has never become a memory. 

I know he returned from Brussels after the holidays. “And his goals sound good” his sister said when she came to visit me in February – she was so convinced about that – leaving me speechless when she pulled a letter out of the bag saying that I should open it after her departure.

A handwritten letter – these people still handwrite – where black nerve letters piercing the white paper would take shape and become words, regrets and words again. “He wrote it the day after he had returned home” or so she claimed.

Once I got it, I carried it for more than 60 days in my purse without ever opening it and it was like holding gunpowder in my hands. Every time I saw it among the other things, I tried to imagine why Calogero had felt the need to write. I know he would never do something that could throw me off-balance or harm me. He didn’t want to rip me from my present life either, he’s not that kind of man, he rather waits for things to come into his life. “He just wanted to know if you were happy ….” said her sister. And if I had not opened up til Friday it wasn’t because I didn’t want to but because I was afraid my world could have blown up and there’s nothing I could have saved.

 I read it on Friday night and then again yesterday afternoon. And today. I read it a hundred fifty-nine times.

 So that’s what he said …..

 

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to be continued

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5 Comments

  • Reply Maria Jose Gomez 09/04/2017 at 9:32 pm

    Meraviglioso post e foto
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    @mariajosegomezverdu

  • Reply little fairy fashion 10/04/2017 at 8:51 am

    Curiosa di sapere cosa c’è scritto nella lettera.
    Come sempre sei bellissima. Kiss
    Nuovo post “Fai ciò che ami….sempre!” ora sul mio blog http://www.littlefairyfashion.com

  • Reply tr3ndygirl fashion & beauty blog 11/04/2017 at 2:04 am

    tornerò a leggere il seguito, mi hai incuriosita 🙂
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  • Reply shamuboo 12/04/2017 at 8:29 pm

    There is such a wonderful artistry to these shots, like a classic painter viewpoint. And no one sets a mood better than you, dear. But if I am honest my most favorite thing of all are your breasts under that silky soft material. They look so beautiful it filled me with excitement each shot of them, a feeling I love to have. I do hope my comment is OK, I am always unsure.

    All Things Bright and Lovely

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